I thought it was about time I wrote another journal entry... If you have been following my account for more tehn a year then you'd probably notice that I never made journal entries that often, and even less since last summer. I guess I don't have too much excitement in my life, well... not enough to keep making journal entries about.
The last year has been... well... rough, as was probably assumed from my last two journal entries, but, it has gotten better, better and then worse again, then better. That's the way life seems to go I guess.
I've had more people leave me life, and a couple people come into my life, and possible, another leaving. Even though the number of people who have left my life really, outweighs the number of people who have entered my life, I think the quality of these new people is much higher. They always say quality over quantity, right?
Anyways, there's been a lot of change, obviously.
I think I'm adapting to this new way of life much better, I think this also has to do a lot with the people around me, it can make all the difference. I have discovered that I don't get along well with other people like me... by that I mean, other blind people. In my opinion, they try to be too "sighted", to me it seems as though they are trying to hard and pretending that they are still sighted. I see the importance of trying to be normal, but... I don't know... to me, I don't think I could be like them, it seems to silly to me. I don't like to get hung up on the visual world. As I've said to many people, I think the visual world... the visual aspect of society ruins people in a way. Everyone is too caught up on the things that are seen and at the same time, they don't seem to leave much apreciation for all the other aspects of life. I'm not making a generalization here, not everyone is like this, but I've come across many people and instances proving to me that this is true in some. I've discovered that there is so much insecurity in the world these days, amung people... a lot of the adolescent society is based on cruelty, negativity, narrow mindedness, a inverted attitude of what's good and bad... and I'm pretty sure it all comes back to insacurity. People are looking out for themselves, they are trying to keep themselves safe. Nobody wants to be hurt. Somehow people have drawn the conclusion that hurting everything else will prevent being hurt yourself. I'm hoping that what all the "older" people I know tell me is true and that people grow out of this train of thought because what a horrible place to be... this world... if people stayed like that. Though I'm sure some people do... There's a happy medium in there somewhere... maye it all evens out. Variety in people... anyways, I'm rambling. *ahem*
I won't go to much into that, but it is just what's on my mind lately, wiht a number of causes, the new school year beginning again, as well as seeing people around me degenerate into a seemingly "black hole" of depression. Why do people act as if they want to remain depressed? No matter all the help around them, and within them, they turn away from it all, like they would rather do nothing and stay the way they are; miserable. I can't stand people who are stubbornly depressed. No matter what you say, what you do, they push it all away. Frankly, it's selfish. Then again, maybe that's what they need, they need to be with themselves, though they don't want to admit it. People want too much all at once. People want more then what they can handle. Again, by "people", I'm not making an absolute generalization... I mean "some people", or a fraction anyways... Yeah...
Personally, I'm quite happy with things, just disappointed in others, and despite the fact I'm back for one last year of highschool, when I shouldn't be, and I admit there's a bit of bitterness towards the whole school thing this time round because of that, especially since last aJune they were trying to talk me out of graduating. I didn't know the ministry or anyone working with the ministry was allowed to do that... there has to be some moral wrong in that. Oh well, this year will go by fast, I only have three courses, or four if they screw me over, like they probably will.
The summer was pretty good, though I missed out on seeing my good friend in Edmonton... ah well, there will be more chances, hopefully next spring break, I'll probably be heading over to Edmonton.
I got to go down to Vancouver for the last week of summer though, spend some time down there, as well as see Pearl Jam in concert. It was amazing, I wish I was more awake for it though. It was still amazing though...
I've realized that being eighteen is just one big tease. "So close yet so far" type of thhing. Just one more year... just another year, then I'll be nineteen finally. British Columbia's weird that way.

Coming back to DevinatArt...
I still really miss drawing and every associated with making visual images... I want to do things on DA still... I just really don't know what... Sure there's poems or things like that, but I don't think poetry is really my thing... maybe a story? Maybe...
I need to do something with creativity, it's all bottled up in my head, and it's been there too long, I need a release of it. I thank all the people still visiting my account, it's greatly appreciated, I'm glad my art is still enjoyed. I only have memories of it left to enjoy, and thos fade more and more with time... I forget more and more details of somethings until it is just a general idea of what the picture was of, the pose of the subject and the colours maybe... those sorrt of things...

Anyways, I hope to hear at least some feedback from some of you
Try to get in touch with all you guys again.
Hope you are all doing well.

See ya later